The Musings of Mei Wan.

…a very very i quote, “gay as blazes” gay man (he was the stylist on the shoot i assisted on today) touched my butt on purpose cos he thought i was a boy. he kept saying sorry and felt REALLY bad when he discovered that i was NOT a boy. he said PLEASE DON’T SUE ME.

i’m actually more upset that he thought i was a boy… :(

it’s like DUDE or MISSY, HAVE YOU SEEN MY HIPS?!

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this was i guess the highlight of the day, for my second day as an intern at Calibre Pics. i mean, how often do you unintentionally get sexually assaulted!?? hahahahas.

i have half a mind to buy a wig. Or keep my hair long again…

sigh. the hazards of a short cut.

anyways, the shoots that i was on today were pretty fun. I’m so glad to be at this again, after one year of school. Yes i did my own shoots and no i don’t actually get much control of anything as an intern, but it feels really good to be finally free to do what i really want to do. To make decisions without the constraint of class or projects.

More updates soon! and new shoots will be up, gosh i’m so bad at putting shoots up it’s incredible.

<3

I had buck teeth, I was awkward, I was clumsy. And i don’t remember being good at anything
Now watch this.

i know these talent shows are cliche, but i never fail to be amazed. gosh. She has such a huge voice… and she’s TEN. sure she goes off a little and whatever, but she’s TEN. can you imagine when she’s TWENTY?? if she doesn’t become a lindsay or a britney, then she’ll be big. though, she kinda has that look, the look where she’ll get all cocky and become crazy, i must admit. Hahas, all remains to be seen.

I would love to be able to sing like that. sigh. or be a dancer. hahahas. dreaming, am i.

Now i want to watch that. I was reading Cake Wrecks and read this post on a film based on a competition hailed as France’s Nobel Prize for pastry. Sixteen chefs cook in three days to compete for the coveted prize. It’s called Kings of Pastry and you can read more about it on the website.

When i saw the trailer, i was so intrigued. The film hasn’t been released yet i think and it’ll be screened starting September 15 around the U.S.

KINGS OF PASTRY Theatrical Trailer from Pennebaker Hegedus Films on Vimeo.

please my american friends reading this you should go try and catch it! you can check the screening schedule here! I’m currently trying to figure out how I can watch it.

This film has even been hailed as the “Culinary Hurt Locker”.

I’m so excited.

This is SUCH an annoying topic that i cannot help but rant about this.

For the longest time, I thought my Apple “Super-drive” sucked ass. And being an Apple fan, even i had to admit it. Every single time i burnt a DVD, it would spit it back out with some kind of bloody m-effing error that would cause me to YELL.

But some time in the last 2 years, I discovered something. Ok, the Apple optical drive isn’t all that good.

**Begin rant within rant* Really, the region code thing is bloody annoying, especially for someone like me that has both a mix of both region code 1 and 3 DvDs. And this is not cos i am ripping or stealing DVDs or whatever, but it’s pretty much cos i’ve lived in both places and naturally, because i WOULDN’T want to pirate DVDs, hence i would buy them. But nooooo, the Apple drive INSISTS on looking at this code crap and thus eventually LOCKED my DVD drive into region 3 just before i went to the US (Region 1). GRRRR. Well since getting a new MBP, i am wise enough not to make the mistake again. **End rant within rant**

So even though the drive isn’t great, i’ve realised that majority of these errors are NOT the fault of the drive but the fault of the discs themselves. Also having been a windows using for a long time, i know windows has its CD/DVD burning problems too, strange how DVD burning is such an difficult tasks for these machines.

Anyways. for all of those who have NOT realised this, DVD brands such as IMATION and MEMOREX, are BAD brands which screw up almost every single time.

I put into like 5 imation dvds to burn some photos to, none of them got past the first minute of burning. Some didn’t even begin to burn. I just put in a Sony DVD-R and it worked like a dream. Smooth. No hiccups.

Sigh. What is the matter with imation and memorex? What is the point of unreliable DVDs? They’re supposed to be for backing up, but what happens when the back up screws up on you first?

Incredible.

Hahas. ok Rant over.

Does that mean i’m conceited? When it comes to certain things, I don’t pay compliments too quickly and I tend to analyse it first, then give my opinion after. However, sometimes people tend to mistake this as me, being conceited, thinking that i think i’m worthy of giving such an opinion, that cos that certain something doesn’t reach my own level of work so i don’t like it, or i don’t rave about it.

The thing is, I’m my own worst critic when it comes to my own stuff. I never think highly of my work, especially after you give me like two days after i did it, i’ll be ripping it apart.

So when i have high standards, be it a photo or a piece of design or writing or whatever, i really don’t compare it to my own stuff, but rather the work that I aspire to and have seen before.

I want my opinion to mean something, maybe because that would be what i want to hear from others. Good solid opinion.

Shouldn’t people be pushed past the easy “that’s cool/really nice” limit? So many times, people give that comment too easily, and too quickly. It almost doesn’t mean anything anymore.

It’s a little frustrating when people think I’m being too harsh and I don’t cut people slack.

Isn’t being a perfection (not unreasonably) and not being too easily satisfied when greatness is accomplished?

Could you really appreciate praise that is too carelessly handed out? I couldn’t. I guess it’s a pride thing.

Now on the topic of striving for perfection and being critical, there’s another very important side to the story.

You can have high standards, but being overly unreasonably critical and overly harsh is also something that can destroy you as a person as well as people around you. it can be demoralising and admittedly, I am guilty of this but not with others. I can be so negative about my own work that I take it to a whole new level, as my boyfriend has told me. Unfortunately he has had to listen to all my ranting and unhappiness.

Nothing is perfect and nothing can ever be. I’m still working on accepting that and realising that I cannot possibly be so critical on myself.

Have no fear of perfection – you’ll never reach it.  ~Salvador Dali

Annoyingly true, but essential for every perfectionist out there to learn and accept.